March

I guess it's time to give my blog a little love and post an update.

Work: Work is good. I've started my permanent position and am just waiting for more training to begin. I've had a run in with a "senior" coworker who is intimidating as shit. Whatever. I'm keeping to myself and enjoying my other coworkers. I'm thankful I've got a job with today's economy, though.

Family: They're good. I guess my mom is moving back to Tennessee in May with my dad and Matthew. We'll see how that goes come May. Nicole and Siaosi are doing well with their girls. Mia's great. She's going through the terrible two's stage at 21 months. She throws temper tantrums, talks back in her own language, says "No" and is now trying to hit me when she doesn't get her way. I usually walk away from her when she's throwing a fit just to show her that I'm not going to put up with it. I can't believe she's almost two.

Relationships: I'm in the same place. Mia's dad and I are still seeing each other. It's a weird place to be. We're not technically "in a relationship", but everything is there with the exception of the title. Everyone who knows the situation is constantly trying to define our relationship status. I'm happy just spending time with him and am enjoying it. Do I wish it were more stable? More than anything. Am I afraid that when he leaves my side that he won't come back like he's done so many times in the past? Absolutely. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Because I hope that he has sincerely changed this time. Not only am I involved in this sticky, tangled web, our daughter is in it, too. She will be devastated if he leaves and doesn't come back. But what do I do? Do we continue what we're doing, or do I break all connections and let the legal system come into play with visitations and forced child support? What a mess.

Life in General: It's good, I guess, depending on what day you ask. In all honesty, life is good. Crazy and hectic and financially unstable, but it's life. I have my family, health and close friends that I love dearly.